Senseless

Petals falling and roses dimples
Skylight reflected onto the streaming water
Dancing daffodils swaying along with the wind
Sweet smelling scent coming from the field
Puffy clouds just like lily-white
Breeze singing along to a familiar tune
Sweet taste of the berries
Soft touch of the feather falling down
Gently caressing the skin

Sense of seeing
Sense of smelling
Sense of hearing
Sense of tasting
Sense of feeling

See the darkness
Smell nothing
Not a single sound of softness
Taste of blendness
Feel nothing

Where is this leading to?

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Returned

The night I got crushed
I was hoping for someone
just to be there for me
but I had no one around

Besides of wanting my sister
to be there, I was hoping
for you to be there but
it was impossible

I had been waiting and waiting
Just waiting patiently for
your return and just to know
that you're doing fine

I love you so much,
you're my best friend
and it is so great that
my prayer had been answered
You had returned after
so much had happened to me
My life has somehow brightened up
and it isn't gloomy as before

You're so important to me
and I don't want to lose a friend
I treasure this friendship very much
and I'll always remember that
I owe you that promise,
the promise that is between
the both of us...


For Jarrett A. Steffen

(I'm so glad that you're back...I hope this poem doesn't seem mushy YIKES!)

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A Little Message

In my sleep as
I'm typing this
out from my mind

Waiting just
to talk to you...
Sweet sweet nice
pretty face boy
What does this girl
have for you?

All she does is go
'Blah blah blah'
and you just wish
for her to shut as
she talks too much

Simply, she doesn't
know what to talk about
so just pardon her
nonsensical talks
She doesn't know whether
you enjoy talking to her
or maybe a torture to you

Off to bed her minds go
sleep sleep and dream
of something pleasant...
Maybe dreaming of you
Eeks! Goosebumps I know
but just bear with it...
She is just a crazy girl

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You're Not There

(I know I had sort of stopped writing poems but I just felt like doing another...)

The summer sun shines down on me
And I’m wishing, wishing
that you could be there by my side…
Sitting here all alone,
waiting for you to come by
but somehow I woke and
realised that I had been
dreaming all this while

You had broken my heart years back ago…
Telling me that you had found someone
somehow I tried to get away from it
Tried to run away,
running away from my fears
Don’t want to turn back no more

There is no turning back
You took away that part of
happiness from me…
what is there for me now?
I’m all alone, all alone…
With the sun shining down on me…

For Joost van den Berg


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end.

Fooled Again (Last Poem)

Never say that you love me
You had me fooled
You're not at fault as
it was me to be blamed

I couldn't breathe
when you told me the news
I cried but somehow I knew
this was coming just that
I don't know when it will be

Please don't say that
you love me 'cause
it truly hurts me completely
I couldn't sleep well
last night and
I wonder why there was
this pain in my chest

I'm strong, I know that
and I know my traits
are better than yours...
I will brave it up and fear not
as I still see you as my friend
No one is my enemy
no one deserves to be...

So what if I'm so far away?
I will be there some day
just that you will not know
From this, I had learnt a lot of lesson
not just from you but from others too

I got to learn not to make promises
as we all know most of them break
I got to learn not to trust my heart
as my mind is the one to guide
I got to learn how to hate what I fear
and I fear this will happen,
so now I'm closing my heart
just for a period of time...

When will it open?
I do not know but some day it will
when my mind tells me that I'm ready...


For Joost van den Berg

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Am Just A Foolish Girl

I'm just a foolish girl
who is just seeking
some hopeless romance

I know I took the first step
into liking you and such
but yet you're just like him
I know you had said to me
but why did you play along?

I didn't blame you
just like I didn't blame him;
I just blamed it on myself
But to bear this nudity
in front of you...
I just feel so shameful
and my dignity had perished
I wonder after you had read,
you probably changed
your feelings and mind

I really do not know but that night,
I truly got crushed twice
Why am I so foolish to like
someone whom I have never met?
I'm just a stupid girl...
be it then.

For Frank Berendsen


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My Best Friend

When I first met you,
I didn't quite like you
as you were one boastful kid
Somehow when time flies
we got to know each other
You felt easy to share your
problems and feelings with me

Well, I know you had trust in me
so I did the same and shared
my problems and secrets with you
Pouring every detail that had happened
Just wanted to let you know,
and you were like my diary

You had always been there for those years
but you went missing
The last time I received a message
from you was months ago
telling me that everything was fine
and that you would never forget me

I don't know about now,
wondering how is your life
hoping that all is fine
Where are you my friend?
Please don't let me worry
I do not want to cry

I have been waiting and
waiting for your reply
Hoping that one day I could
see you again or receive at least a reply
But you tested my patience
and it has been long,
I guess you have indeed forgotten about me

For Jarrett A. Steffen

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Don't Promise (When You Can't Keep It)

You asked me whether
could I skipped the shows
so that I could be there to talk to you
I skipped the shows just to talk to you,
but you were busy with someone else

You promised me that
you would be there for the next day,
at a particular time...
I waited for you but you didn't turn up
You turned up hours later

Before you left for vacation,
you made a promise to me that
on the 31st December you would
greet me a Happy New Year
I waited, but it didn't happen

I don't know what to say now
as you have disappointed me
Should you ever make a promise to me,
should I accept it?
No, I can't...
Don't make any promises to me
for I won't accept them


For Tieme Willems

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